sigh....wrong again

so, the guy i mentioned in the last blog,

i was wrong. straight.

i always seem to do this...it's not like i try to find straight guys attractive, but there is something about them that is so....enticing.

I met him nearly 3 years ago at a concert. we talked, got along, smoked, laughed....

i asked him later if he was gay, he never responded. i figured that was a no.

fast forward to last friday...at my show...

there he was, still beautiful, still smiling, still remembering me.
we talked, laughed, smoked, got along...

but i misread it...as usual...like there was something more there. He was touchy...i was confused. He seemed interested in getting me alone....wrong again.

i kinda knew that this wasn't going to happen, but i was trying to convince myself that i was wrong.

on the upside, at least i didn't have to ask him if he was into guys...he answered it for me.

so, i was going to see if he wanted to go see a show this coming saturday night...which would have been a day before i met him 3 years ago...not as some aniversary bullshit, but more as friends, but he said he's busy. as a result, i'm going to sac to see my best friend (and one of the few people brave enough to live with me) brett. if anyone can pull me from the hands of depression, it's the gutman.

but to close out...

i don't blame anyone, especially this guy...he's awesome and i'm thankful to have him as a friend....even if that's it.